#my aunt (i did not like her!) died.
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the major arcana, shuffled: 4/??
THE HIGH PRIESTESS; ⤉ spirituality, higher power, mystery, subconscious ⤈ hidden motives, secrets, repressed intuition, cognitive dissonance THE EMPRESS; ⤉ motherhood, femininity, nurturing, harmony ⤈ smothering, negligence, lack of growth, insecurity THE EMPEROR; ⤉ fatherhood, structure, authority, control ⤈ tyranny, domination, recklessness, rigidity
#oh boy a 3 for 1 deal!!!#ty to fheythfully for your portrait tutorial!! :D#my game crashed when i was making this and i was about ready to pass away#the idea for this was 'haunted family paintings' with a dash of dorian gray#i intentionally fucked up the facial expressions with crimes & used photoshop filters to achieve the decaying effect of the reverse#for the people who don't know the tatlongharis (aka paris' maternal family via andromache):#the priestess is their aunt cassandra / the empress is their grandma hecuba / the emperor is their grandad priam#paris never met their grandma because she died way before paris was born#how did she die? priam accidentally caused her death but she (and cassandra) predicted she would die b/c they have the echo#so there you go :)#also i tried to match the crowns to the card names but i don't think i got close lol#body horror cw#just in case#notice how hecuba's face is all mangled while priam's flesh is wasting away. like the rotten corpse he is#as per usual flip your phone around to see the reverse sides#mygposes.#ffxiv:tma#ffxivsnaps#gposers#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv oc#hyur
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you really have to admire my dad's cousin for not even telling us my great aunt was sick until she's literally about to go into hospice care while we're all across the ocean, that's such a nice thing to do :)
#personal#why is everyone on my dad's side of the family so FUCKED#you know my aunt didn't even tell us my uncle was sick before he died#like that literally came to the entire family out of the fucking blue#i felt so awful for my grandparents and my dad about that like literally no one knew and then boom he's dead#meanwhile this moron doesn't even tell us my auntie alta is doing so badly until literally like ten minutes ago#('she doesn't have much time left' you think maybe we could have been informed a bit before this???? tf????)#and don't even get me started on the dead uncle's wife who's a full republican#or my living uncle's wife who is so fucking unbearable and such an unholy piece of work that for the only time in my life i condone cheatin#only when he did it#but now i'm Annoyed#(especially cuz there's a lot of Stuff with me and my auntie alta we have a special connection and apparently i look a lot like her)#at least the maternal side of my family is marginally more normal
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09.07.2023
Today, Romano went to the circus and watched the clowns do their act
#today's romano#hetalia#aph romano#hws romano#09.07.2023#tw clowns#i know this is out of the blue and a bit random#but my great aunt was a professional clown#like had professional training#and she died of a heart attach yesterday afternoon#tw death#after she married and had kids she stayed in one town#but did like birthday parties#she was awesome a face paint balloon animals and magic tricks#and she would often volunteer for events in her town#her favorite event was her towns special needs carnival#where everything was made more inclusive#(no loud sounds or lights etc)#she didnt dress up in full clowning gear for that event#but still went be her clown name#Bubbles the clown#the world is a little less fun now that shes gone#thanks for reading my ted talk about death and mourning
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Do you have thoughts about Baby Henry and his Great Aunt Matilda?
Oh BOY do I.
I could literally go on and on forever but I should redirect you to this entire fic which is basically a coherent, carefully constructed, novel of those thoughts:
(Those with an astute eye will notice that I call Matilda Henry’s aunt, as in his fathers sister, as opposed to his great aunt. Maybe this is due to the copious amounts of inheritance fuckery brought up in the first chapter. Maybe I forgot because rereading nothing but shadows makes me sad. Maybe I can make it work and I’m going with it.)
#*smacking four year old Henry on the head* this bad boy can hold so many childhood symptoms of autism#look at him. he had no friends. didn't respond when people called his name. zero imitating of the adults around him.#would scream bloody murder if you tried to take something he liked away from him. absolutely did not babble.#probably didn't talk until he was like five. is picking up on no one elses emotions. never seems to waver from “:)” regardless ofenvironmen#anyways. I’m crawling all over the wall connecting random sentences from the books together with red string#Dissecting this shit to the core#Used my Jstor account to go study the York dialect in the 1850s#Which is different than just the accent btw#because I connected the dots#I can make that mistake work actually#Add it to “mistakes I make that actually make sense”#Gloria Branwell does not like her in-laws. Or her husband. Or anyone honestly#plus the inheritance fuckery happening brought up in the first chapter#So a lot of relationships are being being blurred#its worth noting that for all intents and purposes Henry did think she was his great aunt#Which is mostly because a) his mother hated her and b) she died when he was like ten#and therefore died way younger than one would assume she would have.#anyways I love that fic#of all my fics (despite the glaring mistake that I genuinely cannot believe I made what the fuck caterpillar) that one is like#the most detailed#most carefully built up#most “could be inserted into canon”
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every single minute i feel like a pressure valve that’s winding up too tightly and any minute it’ll just pop.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[i so badly need a week off. i need just one fucking week to reset myself. I’m begging for one fucking week to reset myself. I’m hoping my#kid’s parents decide to take her for a holiday because I love my job but my aunt just died and i am living out of a laundry basket from#laundry i am continuously doing because I haven’t had the time to go through her clothes. and then I have to move all of mine. which#requires time even with help. like. I’m losing my mind. at least I just went grocery shopping so the fridge is stocked. but I have to move#an entire house. again. after I just did it two years ago the opposite way. and frankly? I miss my aunt. I miss my aunt so fucking bad and n#no one cares. I had a dream she was here and I asked her why she left me and she said ‘I didn’t go anywhere cait. I’m right here.’ like. I c#can’t grieve when I’m also taking care of everything. and I just want to go to the cemetery to light some incense. I just want to cry.]#death /#negativity /
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sry my beef eith that pastor is unending i fucking hate that guy like ugh . he soent maybe 5 minutes talking abt the actual ppl who actually died and then spent 2 hours just preaching and telling us we were all going to hell. is that how it is at all christian funerals. protestant i think if that means anything.
#like he tried to talk himself up abt how close he was eith alda mae and didnt even pronounce her fucking name righttt#and i remember talking with my papaw after granbys service and he was like I fucking hate that guy .#but its like her whole side of the family is buried in this one specific cemetery and her mom was at that funeral home and then a year later#alda mae went to that funeral home like. yk. its judt like The funeral home for that part of the family but god all of us fucking hate it#like nobody liked the service. even if the guy was aldas pastor maybe the extended family liked it better#but like. my immediate/immediate extended family (papaw cousins aunts uncles and then like. immediate) All of us were pissed w how grannys#funeral went. yk. UGH it made me so mad.#nd like. idk. idt thats what my granny would've wanted like . she was religious but i dont think she wouldve wanted the guy preaching to us#abt how we were going to hell. like i think she wouldve cussed him out DJFNFJNG. yk. my granny was not like. a good person . tbh.#tip if an older southern relative you rly rly rly love dies Donttt check their facebook bc yr sad and you miss them and just want to see#their face again. it will rly sour your opinion on them quite quickly. but yk. it did make me mad that service. bc i love my granny and that#service was justtt awful. but it was nice being in the cemetery yk. i cleaned up my great grand tombstone my aunt shae got to see her dad nd#everything. i still havent been able to actually see grannys proper tombstone outside of findagrave but i wanna try n visit this year . if#we get a car. you know. bc the picture is nice its a joint one for her and my papaw. who is not dead yet Obviously and hopefully wont be for#a longgg time hes young. i think hes like 60ish. so hes still got a while thank god. but mannn. wtvr.
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Also I never knew that there was even a single color photograph of my grandparents' wedding in 1952. I've only ever seen the ones in black and white. Don't they look beautiful? Didn't I just come from the most gorgeous people?
#i love how you can actually see my grandfather's red hair#as a redhead i know the injustice that black and white does to us... alas!#my charcoal self-portraits always look unlike myself to me because im like i have red hair. this doesnt look like a redhead#this isnt me#also even though it's a white dress. grammy's dress looks so much more beautiful surrounded by color#wow#tales from diana#did you know i never knew my grandmother was a local beauty queen when she was younger until after she died?#when her dementia got to the stage where she needed a live-in nurse to help her all the time#at one point my aunt rediscovered a picture from when she was about. 17. i posted it years ago#she scanned it and had it cropped and framed and left it in the front of the living room#the first time the nurse saw that photo (i was there) she said 'DAAAAMN MOM IS THAT YOU?'#and grammy was like 'oh :) yes thats me'#like it was nothing and then later on the nurse said 'i know you already said it but damn i just cant stop looking at you!'#that nurse was really nice. really really nice.#the priest at the wake when saying a prayer for the family before everyone else started ushering in#mentioned what a beauty my grandmother was and what a lovely couple the two of them were.#they went to that local church for about 60 years so he mustve known them for decades. it was a nice touch.
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hm… i’ve written like 3k words in two days
#creative block….unblocked?#‘creative block’ bruh ur dad died ur allowed to be shaken gah#um anyway. tag diary <3 my grandpa died today too#last grandparent :/ he had real bad dementia & was refusing to eat like a week ago so it was a long time coming#sucks tho#my dad n my dads dad :/#he wasn’t. a great person by any means. i just feel for my aunt since she was his sole caretaker#like. from her perspective her brother just died (a year younger than their mom did. 59-58) and she’s 57. and now her dad too?#it just. sucks.#that’s it! it just sucks#and my dads church is ducking our attempts to set up a memorial date despite the literal thousands of dollars#he’s tithed to them over the last decade 😬#mom n i think it’s cause we’re godless heathens who aren’t a part of their cult. who said that#(they’re an assembly’s of god church if. anyone knows abt that / cares)#so if they keep dicking around we’re just gonna do it at the funeral home Literally Right Next Door#and then. in march. a memorial for my dad and my grandpa in missouri :/#and then of course. all of the other shit i still need to take care of. gah. whtvr whtvr
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not me getting sudden flashbacks of acting THE EXACT SAME WAY hunter did with belos back when he was the golden guard. i feel incredibly sick to the stomach.
#personal#vent#i remember being younger after my parents died i literally acted like hunter#i remember asking permission to eat and shower#every morning i wake up i would do my chores first and only when they're done i'll eat something as a reward#i even bowed at her feet and thanked her so many times whenever she does something nice to me#i wasn't even reaching the bare minimum. i wasn't allowed to go outside or go to college#i wasn't allowed to make friends bc she used this ''other people are outsiders. only family will be there and love you'' mentality#so i was incredibly sheltered even when i'm technically 18#if i was late doing chores (bc i wake up later) she would do them and guilt trip me on how much i owe her for these#EVERY DAY#i get threatened to being separated from my sister with being sent to different orphanages whenever i disobey her#she blamed me for my dad's death and did not allow me to grieve. saying thats just my dad while he's her son#so you can imagine how incredibly terrifying the whole situation is to an orphan#and what sickens me even further is that she loved it#she loved the attention i gave her. that pure blind loyalty#she kept the money that was supposed to be for our food and groceries my aunt gave her. guilt tripped me into using the little money i got#now i love belos as a complex and fucked up character#but i think the urge to be loyal to someone so monstrous and abusive has been taught to me#its familiar#abuse tw#trauma tw
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maybe the extreme isolation of the characters in my writing is a reflection of the isolation and loneliness and alienation and lack of friends/family that i feel in my own life. who’s to say really
#cammie.txt#who up reading their grandparents obituaries and looking at pictures of their dead father#for reasons i don’t feel compelled to air to the entire internet my mom is like an actual stranger to me i did not grow up with her at all#i don’t know her side of my family and most of them i haven’t been around since i was in kindergarten#my aunt (dad’s sister) and cousins (her 2 kids) don’t speak to me or my siblings and haven’t since my grandma died like 20 years ago#i met my aunt once as a baby. my sister didn’t invite her to our dad’s funeral. her only brother’s funeral#plus my dad was old. his parents were old.#sometimes i think about how my grandma had 5 siblings in new york but her family literally disowned her and#i don’t know anything about them. gawd#my dad also didn’t talk about his parents or his sister at all. once told me he considered his step-siblings (the 3 kids of his dad’s second#wife) more like siblings than his own little sister. WTF? no explanation on that marty?#sometimes i get so upset that he’s dead and i can’t talk to him anymore. i have so many questions!!!!
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world is cruel but my grandmother's dark brown skin is warm and shes old enough for her hair to be peppered grey and white and theres so much strength in her bones when she squeezes my hand when i sit on the edge of her bed and the skin of her palms is hard and smooth and i get to talk to her and hug her. so consider that
#you know the reason why i even chose pedrisco as a last name was because that was the last name of the side of her family that took her in#and protected her after her mother died and her father abandoned her#i wish she was younger and she could show me where she used to live at the ranch but sometimes she talks to me about stuff like that and#thats good too. i like her very much#i forgive her for inflicting childhood catholism on me maybe. sometimes#well anyways i think its funny my mother was CONVINCED she would haev a FREAK OUT over my piercing my face and she litearlly did not say a#single thing except when my aunt asked me if i was gonna get more and i was like well i want tooo but i know im not and my grandma from her#bed was like 💔dont get more and we were all laughing but yeah im probably not gonna get more#but that was all i told her my grandmother wasnt going to have a freak out but she didnt believe me well whatever i like my grandma she giv#me fruit and soup. forrrr meeeeeeee#i dont ever get to talk about good parent stories like other people but at least i have very healthy relationships with my grandma and all#cousins aunts/uncles so it definitely makes up for it
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drags myself onto the dash. hey sorry there was a death. also bg3
#ooc / delete.#death mention /#my aunt (i did not like her!) died.#i may not have been sad but my mom and sister and cousins were.#so. being online wasn't really on my mind.#i'd scroll the dash occasionally. but.#i'm gonna muster up all of my energy and answer my dms later today. <3#sorry if we were talking and i disappeared. i do that. it will happen again.#i'm going to pick up where we left off like nothing ever happened.#if it bothers you. simply ignore me. or change the subject. thank yooou.#(i'm trying to approach this messaging insecurity differently... and better than i have in the past. i'm tired of apologizing.)#(i'm unmedicated for everything that's going on in my noggin. i'm doing my best. we all function differently.)
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ffs so much shit just happened and got revealed to me rn i need to stop talking to my family omfgg……..
#talks to aunt who reveals sickening info to me about x#-> tells my dad to not post about thing on FB bc x found out about it bc x’s friend saw it and told her#-> dad gets super pissed at x’s friend and messages her like ‘did you open your fat mouth about [thing]’#-> i wasn’t supposed to even tell my dad about it but told him just so he woukd not post about thing or future thing at all anymore#and x’s friend will now tell x that my dad messaged her about thing meaning he found out somehow and will figure it was cause of me#-> x will then probably put two and two together n realize that i probably met up with my aunt and she told me that she n x know about thing#i dont want x knowing anything about my wherabouts or that i talked to aunt#-> aunt will prolly be told off for telling me#-> aunt will prolly get mad at me for telling my dad (but i had to so he’d stop posting about thing)#and the thing is that !!!! my dad was explicitly told not to post about thing so that x will never find out ! this is so fucked up!#i’m rlly pissed off rn that x’s friend told x bc she knows EXACTLY why x was never supposed to know about it…. and told anyways…#also mad at my dad bc i told him not to do or say anything and just not post thing anymore but he went and straight up messaged x’s friend#about it which will cause issues for me#family is NAWTTTTTT worth it#why is my family such a fucking shit hole lol#thing is i straight up had to tell my aunt i would walk right out of the restaurant if she didn’t tell me how she and x found out about thin#for her to actually tell me how she found out… the fact she wanted to keep it a little secret or w/e………… i’m so pissed rn#why are family members who’ve abused u ur whole life so obsessive about finding shit out…… fuck x i hope she dies dead#jitter bugs u
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good morning today i’m going to have lunch with a bunch of strangers i am apparently related to.
#ooc. o kaptain.#[so as a stereotype I have this cousin who is very active in the church is the very Greek etc etc and she also married a dude who was#ridiculously $$$$ anyway he was a dirtbag and when he died she inherited his company. so she’s a Brooklyn democrat who lives in Connecticut#and we love her. she’s also out of her mind and has been turning up every family member we’ve never heard of. my big yiayia (great grandma’s#) relatives. my aunt’s treatment was the other day hence my disappearing act and today I’m going with her to meet these weirdos just in case#she’s too tired. it’s at the fucking stanwich club I do not want to be wearing a button down at like 9 am on a Saturday. I wanna write and#I wanna go back 2 SLEEP. how y’all doing??? I love you. time to meet more Greeks. oh. hey. did I mention… that my big yiayia was like the#meanest woman alive. she loved to 98 off of nothing but spite.]
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How to survive a power outage when the storm stops and your phone is dying and you're so damn bored
Have a computer that you fully charged just yesterday because you were meant to use it to project a movie but didn't
Have a dvd player attachment you bought to watch movies next year in college without a tv
Have all 7 seasons of Buffy the vampire slayer in dvd and just happen to have finished the last disc and left it in the dvd player when the power went off (but thankfully the next episode is on a new disk
It is a full proof system and combined with text messages that just barely work to your best friend it is the best way to stave off boredom without touching any of your 70+ books because you're not into them rn
#rehks rants#thank you miah#I have no clue what my sister did at my dad's house she probably just played on her phone till it fucking died#I'm so glad I happened to have all of these things it's so nice#like I was thinking :( I wish I had a portable dvd player but I do it's called a laptop#my aunt came in and didn't realize the power was out because I was just watching tv
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my mom telling me to think about going out to eat with my cousin and aunt cause shes tired of seeing them only in a negative light and wants to repair the relationship and im like great that sounds like a horrible plan that will backfire like it does every single other time
#IM DONE TRYING FOR THESE PEOPLE#i cant look at them the same way since my grandfather died and they treated helping him and us as the biggest inconvenience and liked i#guilted them into helping when i told them they should take some time with him at the end of his life#and my mom plays the whole it wont change again i really want to fix it thing as if the past has shown any different#and what is the point.#and then it’s going to make me really upset at my mom#cause it doesn’t matter how I feel or what I think the only thing that matters in the situation#is my moms feelings#so I have to tell her no I don’t want to do that you can but I have no energy left in me#and then that’ll make her upset#I’ve been upset about this all day#why did she even have to bring this up. she’s like well I’ve been thinking.. we have one good day out with my other aunt and my moms like ok#I forgive everything they have done to me and my family for the past 7 years
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